I've had this journal for awhile now but have never wrote in it...i think that it's because i dnt think anyone can help yes i agree u can relate but it doesnt mean it will help...but i thought i'd give it ago now and just see i know what i'm about to say is going to sound stupid and you probably wont believe me but thats fine it's up to you.For the past 4 days i've been feeling extremely suicidal and the thoughts are so intense...its on my mine 24/7 even when i'm asleep its all i think about...i mean i always have the thoughts how can i not but their normally minor but yes i have felt extremely suicidal before and well i have tryed commiting suicide several times before...My story is long and i'm not even sure what i'm doing writting this and what i expect to get out of writting this.Well i hope everyone is doing well...Take Care People! Becka xoxox
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bec: people do love you and always will my dear one. i will send you a note that may be helpful. eaqching out like this is a great atart. your brave and doing the right thing.
love and more love to you.
dennis
Thank you for your comment...i\'m fine now well nearly...Still have the thoughts but not as extreme but i still feel like at anytime i could feel that bad again...Thanks for your words and i hope your alright...Take Care of Yourself xoxox
becca nothings worth takin your own life for beleive me iv\'e tried dnt let who ever done this to you win! people do love you it\'s just hard to beleive theyd want because thats the way it makes you feel if you need to talk you know where i am x x x
Thanks for your comments...There much apreciated...Take Care of Yourself People...Stay Safe...Luv Becka xoxox
I at one time was cutting to but a friend of mine that I meet about a year or two ago he told me that by cutting myself and trying to kill yourself it is only let those that hurt you win thats what they want .
they want to win and you to lose . the ont thing that you need to remember is that you survived the worst part know all you have to do is keep fighting and not let the win anymore .
If you ever need to talk about anything I\'m here .
just let me know .
bye hope this helped.