grrr
Still feel like crap. Three days now, maybe not quite as bad as yesterday. But in a lot of pain. Making me grumpy and irritable. Still haven't started either, so wth knows what my hormones are doing.
All this is putting me in a bad place emotionally.
I feel like I just want to idk curl up and wish this all away. I want to cry and cry. Part of me wants to give up.
I can't point to anything in particular that has happened. Just a gloomy feeling that seems to be following me of late.
It all just seems like so much work and I just feel so tired and not up to the task.
All this is putting me in a bad place emotionally.
I feel like I just want to idk curl up and wish this all away. I want to cry and cry. Part of me wants to give up.
I can't point to anything in particular that has happened. Just a gloomy feeling that seems to be following me of late.
It all just seems like so much work and I just feel so tired and not up to the task.
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Seems we are on the same path. I\'m not maybe as gloomy as all that, but I feel a little off. Sort of just going with the flow, not feeling any real purpose to life. Just existing for the sake of existing. As if the A took my life away and what I\'m left with is nothing. Don\'t know how to describe it. A depression of sorts, I guess. Not real doom and gloom depression, just a sense of feeling meaningless and pointless at times.
But I know in my head what is happening is meaningful and has purpose. I just don\'t feel it. And may not for a while. Sort of an empty feeling.
Hang in their KS, it sounds like PMS, depression and your hormones out of wack. I\'d say go out and take a walk and get some fresh air and exercise. Listen to an inspirational podcast. I like to listen to Chip Ingram from Living on the Edge he usually has some good words that always seem to hit me in the right spot. It might be a good time to go to the doctor and see what\'s going on.
I know how your feeling and I hate it too. You need a big hug which I\'m sending now and an extra hard squeeze telling you it\'s going to be ok your just on the downside of the roller coaster. Hang in there I promise you\'ll start going on the upside real soon.
HUGGGSSSS!!!!
Yeah - been there too. That\'s this damn roller coaster that all of us would prefer to not get on in the first place. Every day tasks become mundane. Ride it out - you\'r entitled to feel this way. Take a nice long hot bath - and tell H to keep everyone - including himself - out of th ebathroom until YOU decide to come out. Hugs!
I\'m so with you on that, Kansas! Don\'t ya just wish you could unzip your skin on the front like kid pj\'s and step out of your skin?
I think a hot bath is in order. Your brain is exhausted from turning every stone over and going back again and again in hopes that you missed something. And after a while, it gets pointless and your legs turn to wood as you go about your day. Like if some aliens landed on your front porch you\'d shrug your shoulders and tell them to not flatten your front yard grass.
Can you go get a massage? Like a 90 minute one? I got one not long after dday and the sweet older Filipino lady working on me said, You need to stop worrying about everything. You\'re carrying too much. And it wasn\'t like she told me something she tells all her clients all the time. She knew I was extremely stressed out.
I felt like a new person when I walked out of there. So I hope you try it with a good massage therapist. Or a really cute one named Alejandro.
Unfortunately, this is all part of the healing process. So the good news is you\'re totally normal. Yea!
The bad news is it still sucks - but this too shall pass. Pinky promise.
It always sucks when you feel bad physically & it just makes a mentally fragile day worse. Don\'t put off the doc if it doesn\'t resolve very soon. Gotta take care of yourself above all else.
Yeah, this week, in particular was bad for me, not jsut with H, but had fights with both of my sisters over the phone! Got tired of their crap too. The one was drunk as a skunk, and couldn\'t talk coherently, nor clearly, was way past slurring her words. The other one was an asshole, so I told her I\'m not going toher B-day party, yesterday, and stuck to my guns. Kinda quiet on the phone front, but that\'s fine by me.
I\'m feeling anger, probably from other stuff, but am deciding to show them how to treat me. Be nice, or be done for the day! lol
Not a whole lot of patience in general, oh well, seems like a bunch of folks have had a bad week here, too, and misery loves company! lol