still

Still missing my husband (I have to get out of that habit, soon to be ex husband).  I hope this is a normal amount of grieving time (married 14 yrs, apart 6 months).  I still cannot believe it.  I still cannot believe he left.  He has made such a huge mistake for both of our lives and our child.  Today I took a time out day, watched movies, bath, ate in bed.  Our wedding pictures still hang on the wall along with our framed wedding invitation.  I cannot make myself remove them.  I cannot get mad.  I guess I never stopped loving him, I just didn't like him anymore because of the drinking. It's just like when someone dies, you only remember the good, and that is what I have been doing lately, only remembering the good things.  I cannot wait until this sadness in my stomach goes away.  I cannot wait until he feels his.