today....i don't know about today. I have just found out that my friend of 17 years isn't talking to me any more and i don't know why.we have been trough alot together. i wish i knew why.I am alone once more in this dieing world, i hope i can make it out alive.i want to but.......can I.i don't know.yess you do no i don't.stop..get a grip on your self, do not let kei do this again, do you under stand me.yeah i do, i will not let him take control of me, i will hold him at bay for as long as i can.