There is so much confusion in my life. Hmmm... whats new. Ever find yourself wondering if the person you like even notices your there? I am sure we all have. But my problem isn't that at lest I hope its not. I think the real problem that I have right now is dos this person that I like mind that they are older then me by 15 years. Then theres the problem if they don't mind that are they going to mind that I am Bi (if I decide to them about that).  Are they going to be able to handle me trying to become a pastor, is it going to be a problem with me being really busy with taking care of my grandparents, working part time, and all the church things that I do?. Most importantly are they willing to move possibly every year when I do become a pastor?(pastors are only garenteed one year at a place but normally stay at least 3) So many questions, a lot of confusion, and I still don't know if they even notice me at all. My mind is going a million diffrent places right now.