Another Day

Today was an ok day.. Pretty much just was lazy because my daughter is sick, so we couldnt really go anywhere. Went to my moms for dinner and the kids helped my mom plant tomatoes in her garden. Talked to my in-laws for a minute. They live next door to my mom. It was hot today so mom & I made margaritas.
Right now I'm back home & kids are in bed. Its that lonely time of my day. I'm kind of feeling down on myself. I dont want to be alone at night.  I want to feel safe and loved.  I feel bad about not having a job or enough money to just leave this town and go somewhere new. Sometimes I feel stuck.
I love my kids so much. I wouldnt trade my life with them for anything in this world. I just hope I wont turn out to be a disappointment to them.  Their dad is enough of a disappointment, always making promises and not keeping them. He doesnt even have the decency to call them everyday to just say hi & see how they're doing.