Update
I've spent the night with my parents a few times this week to keep me from doing anything rash. I've started having bizarre and scary images pop into my head, in which they will not subside.
Work has been a blessing in disguise. It has given me a break from everything going on with my family and I. So has math class, ironically.
I've had to take more Xanax this week due to being so stressed out- thankfully my doctor understands that. I'm going to see if I can go home to my parents tonight since I'm lonely and depressed but it all depends on my boyfriend and if he will drive me to and back.
I'm excited for the weekend to come but I know I will be packed with homework. Here is some of my homework:
A 20 page research paper due on Monday
A rhetorical precis
Sermon readings and posts for my religion class
Last chapter of math and an exam on Tuesday (meaning lots of math homework and review over weekend)
Read three chapter for my psyc class
Read three chapter for my ethics class
Start my 7 page paper for my religion class
Start on a presentation
Finish online posts for another class
And much more.
While I'm stressed and such, I feel like I'm stable at least. That's a good feeling to have.
Work has been a blessing in disguise. It has given me a break from everything going on with my family and I. So has math class, ironically.
I've had to take more Xanax this week due to being so stressed out- thankfully my doctor understands that. I'm going to see if I can go home to my parents tonight since I'm lonely and depressed but it all depends on my boyfriend and if he will drive me to and back.
I'm excited for the weekend to come but I know I will be packed with homework. Here is some of my homework:
A 20 page research paper due on Monday
A rhetorical precis
Sermon readings and posts for my religion class
Last chapter of math and an exam on Tuesday (meaning lots of math homework and review over weekend)
Read three chapter for my psyc class
Read three chapter for my ethics class
Start my 7 page paper for my religion class
Start on a presentation
Finish online posts for another class
And much more.
While I'm stressed and such, I feel like I'm stable at least. That's a good feeling to have.
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Sorry to hear about those images hon; I\'m taking it that you\'ve told your dr about the images you\'ve had in your head? BUt I am glad that you\'re being proactive and making sure to take as many precautions as you can so you don\'t do any harm to yourself; that\'s terrific :)
Also, please be advised that by not viewing any negative program for TV or the movies will help. I was into karate and use to watch violence movies and have nightmares weekly and it is those thing that are responsible for the violence in the world today and people just they crave this. Since my departure I haven\'t even had a nightmare anymore. \"Anyone loving violence my soul do hate\". says the bible
1) Do not become envious of the man of violence, nor choose any of his ways. Proverbs 3:31
2) There are six things that Jehovah does hate; yes, seven are things detestable to his soul: 17lofty eyes, a false tongue, and hands that are shedding innocent blood, 18a heart fabricating hurtful schemes, feet that are in a hurry to run to badness, 19a false witness that launches forth lies, and anyone sending forth contentions among brothers.Proverbs 6:16-19
You also need to shield your heart from the love of violence, for the Devil knows that anyone loving violence [Jehovah] certainly hates. (Psalm 11:5)
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One article says,
Satan does not have to turn you into a bloodthirsty villain to make you an enemy of God; he simply needs to nurture within you a love of violence. It is no coincidence that violence, often with occult themes, saturates the popular media. The Nephilim are dead and gone, but their traits and behavior are very much alive! Does your choice of entertainment show that you resist Satans schemes?2Corinthians 2:11.
Also, you can go to the website for a better explanation at:
www.watchtower.org