I know I am my own boss and I am responsible for my own actions, feelings, thoughts, beliefs, decision and motivating myself! Now I wonder why is is that my friend seems to take it upon himself to tell me what to do. I'm not a child nor am I incapable of not owning up to my own resposnibilities. We were chatting on Yahoo and chatting about what's the plans for the day. I had mentioned something about not having breaqkfast and then he told me to just do it! It may seem like I took it the wrong way, it's up to me when I go eat etc. I wonder if people view me as being stupid or something. This drives me up the wall at times. If I know the drill, then I go and follow through. My real life friends (local offline friends) drive me up the wall at times when they tell me to get over it and keep myself busy. Oh Great! let's practise something that I've been doing all these years with being abused. Distract myself, ya right. I'm findging that my real life friends don't seem to handle their pain and don't know how to deal with it. I have a friend who was beaten to a pulp in front of his home - and I figure he has PSTD from that. There are times I hear him growling and complaining about stuff. Do I say anything to him, when I go visit. NO. I just sit and listen. Why does it seem so hard for some to do?I am thankful for my online friends here and appreciate the kind words. Right now it seems like a safe haven for me.......
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Folks just don\'t understand. They think they are doing you a favor by telling you what to do, but you are like me and it drives us dare I say crazy? :) I just smile that smile that makes them wonder what I\'m thinking. Hang in there maybe they will get it.
...I know...it\'s okay to feel whatever your feeling and if you don\'t feel like getting over it, that\'s okay too. PTSD is very stressful for people who do have it, I think I probabaly do have it. I\'m very sensitive, as a result. And, hey!! No, you\'re not stupid. I find you a person with great depth, and beauty.
love, edie
I love you both! A deep heartfelt thank you! Yeah, some don\'t understand, some close off their minds to it. Being sensitive can be a challenge - have you ever heard of the Highly Sensitive person? I actually enjoy in the depth intellectual side of me.
Thanx again and have a great day!