Ok so I went to my shrink for an "emergancy appointment" yesterday, and we talked for a while.  I am starting to feel a little better, still down, but better.  He told me to relax more and that would probably help everything.  Easier said than done though because I am haveing massive drama in my life.  I feel like Bruce in the movie "Bruce Almighty" where God is a mean little kid with a magnifing glass next to an ant hill and I am an ant and "He just wants to burn off my feelers and watch me scwerm".  But tomorrow is Holloween and I am going to get up in the morning and put on my costume (just like the rest of my friends) and we are going to go have fun.  Hopefully no drama breaks out tomorrow ... I don't know if I can handle anything else going wrong.