I am so depressed today.  It has been a year now but it doesn't feel like it.  I cried all day today because I miss daddy so much and I just didn't know what to do.  I thought this morning (after I didn't want to get out of bed) that if I dressed up, put on make up, and made myself look and feel pretty that I would feel better ... wrong.  I felt just as bad, but when I started crying I realized that maskera and tears don't mix to well.  Anyway then my friend called me and told me that her boyfriend, who has been mentally, emotionally, and spiritually abusive has started hitting her, pulling her hair, and spiting in her face.  As if my day couldn't get any worse right.  On top of all that my doctor still hasn't called me back with the test results, but he told me that I "way to overweigt".  Sometimes I wish I was dead!!!