Today has been a horibale day.  I have had to pull 3 all nighters in a row just to get my basic homework done, one of my teachers told me that I have no bussiness playing the flute and that I should consider changeing my insterment (not in so many words but that is what he ment), I had 4 or 5 panic/anxiety attacks today and one of them was infront of the whole band during marching practice.  Everyone kept stairing at me and giveing me these weird looks like I have a contagious desease like leporcey or something.  I scared some of my new friends and now they aren't talking to me.  i want someone to just shot me and get it over with.