I ended up haveing to take my cusin home today because I started hurting so bad.  I am suppose to have my gallbadder taken out tomorrow and she wanted to play but I just couldn't because of the pain and that upset her so much.  When she asked me why I didn't feel good I told her that I had to go to the hospital because of it and that scared her.  I told her that I would be fine and that when I got out we could read and play little games but I wouldn't be able to pick her up like normal.  She asked what they were going to do and I told her that they were going to make a little cut in my tummy and then I would be ok.  She started crying cause she didn't want anyone to touch "my Charity".  I told her that it would be ok and that I might need to barrow one of her Barbie bandaids tomorrow and she told me she would be my nurse.  When I left she started crying just like my step daughter did when I had to leave her.  It hurts alot to put her though that because I know how bad it hurts her.  I wish the world didn't have to have pain.