in 7 minutes it will be what would have been natties 2nd birthday. (utah time) i am having a hard time going to bed because i don't want tomorrow to happen.
i miss her so much. necole, natties mom came by today and i didn't know how to act around necole, i have been guilt tripped by family for her death.
i tried so hard to save her and even the dr.s said i did everything right. that babies just die. 2 minutes to go.
i just watched the time change to midnight so i guess i am in one of the two days i dreaded most for this year.
i am gonna say goodnight and hope i can get some sleep...talk to you tomorrow.
i miss her so much. necole, natties mom came by today and i didn't know how to act around necole, i have been guilt tripped by family for her death.
i tried so hard to save her and even the dr.s said i did everything right. that babies just die. 2 minutes to go.
i just watched the time change to midnight so i guess i am in one of the two days i dreaded most for this year.
i am gonna say goodnight and hope i can get some sleep...talk to you tomorrow.
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My heart cries for you! I am so right here and if you happan across this journal comment I wrap you in my own arms of grief and comfort each other. My thoughts are your thoughts and I will hold you close this day and everyday. You have so much to be proud of. \"Please\" don\'t allow the guilt of family to ever be your stumbling block, look at all your accomplishments as stepping stones. Much love to you always.
thanks i need a friend today, i am so alone. i went to her grave and nothing was there again. just what i am leaving, why don\'t they care enough to go leave something. if it had been my child i would go to birthdays, holidays, the day she died and every time i couldn\'t go on myself. you see she is my angel and she is the one that knows i did nothing to deserve the looks. she may be gone but she is the one comforting me today. interesting.thanks for your love and to know that there is someone that would wrap their arms around me so we could feel the bond that only those that have a lost understan....
hugs for you, i know it hurts