not sure...

garentee if i hadnt had a few drinks i wouldnt be writing this now cuz i am very careful with what i usually say...
 
i feel so worthless and i feel as though people dont give a shit about me.
i have had some intense urges lately and ive done pretty damn good with not gicing into them, but i seriously wonder how much longer can i stay this strong for??
ive had this battle going on for a looong time now so i hope i can continue to be strong for myself & for my boys.
i guess thats it for now... :(