21 DAYS

That is my countdown. In that many days I will be in another corner of the world with someone special who is looking forward to showing me his part fo the world and giving me a bigger glimpse into just who he is and what helped him get there.

Is funny because so many of us are so unhappy with who we are and what we are missing.  We need to step back and realize all the things we do go through (those good and those sometimes unending bad ones ) do help us become just who we are now. Sometimes they cause us to search a bit deeper and have more compassion toward those also just struggling.  That is what brings us here. Some do ache to have someone care ... and here if we choose , we can do that. 

I would be very lucky to come across someone very special and incredibly intelligent who is at a point where he realized he missed compassion and affection. That I could definitely understand. My late husband did have his moments, but I also recall many where I told him to his face--- he had the compassion of a flea (in case you wonder, that is NOT MUCH!) My new sweetie has given me a taste of what love could look like... and I cannot express how lucky I feel just to get this insight. I am trying not to look too far ahead.  

I am doing as you all always tell me.. One day (step) at a time. We will have a week to enjoy seeing the sights, getting to know each other and just have a memorable vacation. (If I am honest, my perfect world is still buried in a corner of my mind. That is the place where we would be lucky to find so much fulfillment in being together that it would last longer than this week)  I have been told many times there is no perfect world, but for me is just close enough in that we will still have a very good friendship between us and that is better than nothing. 

He tells me I have given him a gift. That would be to  be shown and learn kindness.  He has also given a big one to me... and that is to finally have something to look forward to. For all these years of simply getting by and trying to adapt to just going through the motions, I always said it did not matter if I lived to see another day. Now, I do look forward to each new day... what is in store for us... as well as what is in store for me.   I really miust thank him for that.   :)