Im a jealous and paranoid person when it comes to my boyfriend. So when he told me he was going to stay in with me tonight, then got a phone call from his friends asking if he wants to go out...he went and before he went it started a huge argument! It was the fact that he told me he wanted to stay in with me but as soon as his mates call he changes his mind. I asked him during the day if he was sure he wanted to stay in with me and every time he said yes. It pissed me off because he was fucking with my head. But when we argue we both have to be right and it never gets sorted. He told me that i dont control him and that i cant tell him what to do. He just makes me so angry sometimes and so unhappy. We've been together nearly 2 years and its not that i don't trust him. i just dont trust everyone else. He told me the other day that his friend who has a girlfriend and they have a baby together that he went on a weekend away with the lads, ended up getting drunk and sleeping with another girl!! it annoys me because none of his friends mates stopped him from doing something when they knew he has a girlfriend and a baby, So what makes them stop my boyfriend from cheating on me like that!! i know his friends don't like me, they think i have him under the thumb and its not like that. I dont mind him going out i just hate staying in on my own worried about what he may do. I have trust issues and it doesnt matter how long we've been together because they wont go away. So every time he wants to go out with his friends it results in an argument. Today i got angry, ripped up his newspaper told him we're over, packed all my things in the car and left. he didnt come looking for me, infact he went to the pub with his friends instead!! Maybe it goes to show that he doesn't care about me. He probably thought that he's take the risk and go to the pub while i was out driving around. Little did he know that i parked my car at the bottom off the cliff, thinking about jumping off. Seeing as he didnt come looking for me he probably wouldnt even care if i jumped, wouldnt even know until the next day. I just feel so stressed and alone.
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