Well today was a day from hell again. I feel like my insides are all stuck together since surgery. I am really struggling in my recovery. I have never not bounced back. This is really for the birds. If I loose anymore weight I am really gonna be more depressed. I look like a scare crow. I hate it. Most women would be glad. Not the way it is happening to me. I am not trying and it is still falling off and I am even on supplements to help me maintain my weight and gain. I sure miss my normal life. I had a job and was doing good after fighting lupus for almost 6 years really hard. I was so happy and now here we go again. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I just want my life back so I can get back on schedule and my family life can have some normalcy to it.