Life

Ever feel like your alone in a room full of people? That sums up most of my days, i have people who support me and always will, but I guess i feel like i have to try and hide my pain. I don't want my kids to see me like this, i use to be strong, I used to be the rock that others would go to. Now im withdrawn and alone in my own little room of pain locked away in my mind.
     I feel like my health has taken from me everything but the people around me. I used to pride myself on being the hardest worker, now i cant even do the dishes without being in excruciating pain. I used to draw, but ive lost the ability to do that as well. I hate my cane, I avoid my wheelchair like the plague.
     I dont know.......i just dont know...