3/24/2007
I'm a little bummed out today. Something happened at work that upset me a little. We had just finished shift
briefing and were headed to our duty
stations. At the elevators one of the officers said "I wish you would have attended that Admin Meeting today Captain, because you could have told the administrators about our problems on the 3rd shift." At which one of my Lts joked "We don't want him. He can't talk long anymore without gasping. " Everyone laughed including me. Nothing was meant by it. It was just a little good natured ribbing. A bit rough maybe but not mean spirited.

However,(isn't there always a however?)
during the shift it kept coming back to me. I thought" Is this how they see me now? Am I just a shadow of what I once was? " I never felt so useless. I keep hoping for improvement in my asthma but so far I have yet to achieve control.
An innocent incident like this really brought it home.
Oh well, I have made some progress. I'll try to use it as motivation. I'll feel better tomorrow but right now it hurts.
thanks for your patience,
tom