What to do.

It's been nearly 15 weeks since my husband passed and things seen to be getting worse. 
My girls and I miss him very much and over the festive period has proven challenging. 
I confided in a close friend about a silly misunderstanding and she had blown it out of proportion and got the police involved. 
To top this off the family seem to be turning there backs on me as I can't handle anything like I use to. 
I'm trying to out a brave face on for the girls but feel it is falling apart very quickly. I know I need to see the Dr but don't know how they will help. They can't put me on mess as I have a bad reaction to them. Don't want to talk to a councillor incase they take something the wrong way and make the situation worse like I did with my friend. 
I have tried to contact so many support groups asking for help and they seem to feel I need professional help or when they have looked into additional help they are left with a dead end. 
I feel so lost and alone the last couple of days.