I wish i could just leave.  Run away.  be surrounded by people who actually understand me and want to understand me.  Why do i constantly have to change myself to make everyone else happy.  Why can i not cry.  Why can i not have feelings.  When did this become such a bad thing.  Why can i want to sit down and have a conversation with someone without it being a bad thing.  Im happy with my life.  Im just not really happy with the people im surrounded by everyday.  They dont get me.  They dont want to get me.  Some people see things out of one eye.  and fail to open the other one.  Its so frustrating.