I know I am feeling bad because my thoughts are telling me I can't handle things, when I know that if I just take it slow but take it, I can put one foot in front of the other an keep going.  I will take my time and I will help my children find their ways to school.I will take the train to center city and go to children's hospital and meet my husbandor just stay home if I don't want to extend myself that way I don't have to worry about surgery because jack is handling all of that with jaqui.I think jack wants me to come into town. Maybe I should take the bus, I look more like a bus person these days/