Went to a down syndrome party. Hearing the dj play all the new stuff makes me feel like a dinosaur, and I cannot believe my girls are almost teenagers. I only had ice tea, a burger, and coleslaw, but came home and raided the ice box on salty fatty foods. Consequently no contact with husband; am I only nice when he is distant  and then cold and critical once he is being nice to me. my job is to change this cold critical side in  my head.