went swimming at donna's for an hour. it helped, but my eating is not abstinant. I had to sit here and write whats bugging me before I went to eat a small steak. I guess I am worried again about my relationship with my husband, and well, maybe from trazadone, i just don't feel like doing anything. i have to get things ready for the shore tomorrow, so I mise well get the towels and bags packed now for tomorrow. why does being a homemaker and mother have to be so much work? Would I be happy just to bask in the sun today alone? You bet I would.