My husband and I had an very intimate moment together this morning which was totally unexpected. I jumped in his bed because the kids got me up too early and I wanted to escape. He held me and I initiated sexual contact. However, I still am feeling blah and strayed away from intercourse. I feel so inadequate due to sexual abuse and just cannot rekindle my sexuality in this flattened state (on meds for bipolar) All my passion is in my manic side. I feel so lost and out of touch. I don't know what to do.