bEING ON DS HELPED ME WHEN HE CAME HOME TONIGHT. I JUST STARTED WRITING TO MY FRIENDS TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN. ITS AN HOUR LATER AND I AM OKAY. THINK I SHOULD TAKE A BUBBLE BATH AND RELAX, BUT I PROMISED KID I WOULD TAKE HIMCOLLECTING FOR PAPER AND TO BEST BUY. ANOTHER BROKEN PROMISE. wELL, i AM DIFFERENT FROM jACK, THE MORE HE GOES OUT PARTY HOPPING AND SHIT, THE MORE I SEE WHAT A DIFFERENT PERSON I AM. MORE ROMANTIC, HAUNTED, RECLUSIVE, AND NOWWITHDRAWN.  I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY NOW. NOT JACK THOUGH. HE REALLY LET ME DOWN AND  I ALWAYS SAID TO MYSELF WHEN HE WOULD IGNORE ME MUCH LIKE HE IGNORES ME NOW EVEN BEFORE OUR FALLING OUTTHAT I WOULD HATE TO GET OLD WITH HIM , I WOULD GET SICK AND HE WOULD LEAVE ME IN THE DUSTI WAS PRECISELY CORRECT IN JUDGING HIS CHARACTER. HE THINK HE IS SO SWEET BUT HE HAS A ROTTEN FUCKING SIDE.