I AM IN POOR SHAPE, BUT I HAVE TO CONCENTRATE ON THE KIDS. WHEN HE SAYS SOMETHING TO HURT ME, I GET SICK. THEN I START EATING, POUTING, CURSING HIM BEHIND HIS BACK, HE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE MEAN TO ME. HE MAKES IT WORSE FOR THE KIDS WHEN HE IS MEAN TO ME, BECAUSE MY FUNCTIONING LOWERS.