The stress seems to be getting too much at the moment, I have my scan on Monday and it worries me I have a much easier time imagining that they are going to tell me my baby has died again then everything is okay and then ofcause if everything seems okay I am right in the time frame that Hayden died. The sickness has also really taken over the last few days as well and struggling to cope with that, all I did yesterday was be sick, today has been a little easier but then that puts me on the spin of what happened to Hayden, right around the time he died my sickness dipped, I went from being like I am now to not being sick for three days then just being sick in the mornings it was only later when we were told that he had died did it make sence so while I am struggling with the sickness I am also paranoid about any improvement. I just want to know one way or anouther.