I felt really sad today I talked to my twin sister who lives in Japan and she had here birthday party today and she told me how much she misses me and how she wish we could spend our birthday together it has been a while since we have shared our birthday she lived in Italy for five years and in Mississippi for a year then we started talking about the baby shower and the gift that she was going to send for me I love her and miss her so much and it's really hard not having her here with me for our birthday and for my first baby it's really hard to share everything over the phone or the internet my husband is planning something for me on Tuesday and we are having family over so I'm hoping that I will feel a little better on my birthday I had a dream last night that I had the baby it was a girl I could see her little face and everything but I had to have a c-section but it really wasn't a bad dream at all it was the first time I could see my baby face in a dream  My sister in law is having a baby shower so I went out and got seven outfits bottles and bibs for the baby when she was born on the 15 she was only 5pounds 9oz and she is just a little over 6 pounds now so it will be a while before she can fit what I got for her but everything is pink and so so so cute and I must admit it was nice going in the store picking out and outfit that wan't green or yellow I'm tired and the shower is in the early afternoon so I'm going to turn in early tonight