We get to hear the baby's heartbeat in the morning and the happiness has left and now fear has set in I know that we saw the heart beating twice and we have had to ultrasound but everytime I see my ob there is always a little voice saying brace your self something is going to go wrong that is the sad part about having a miscarriage that fear never leaves you and I think that I will feel that intill the day that place my sweet baby in my arms I still feel sick and my boobs are still sore and I still feel ran down but in that back of my mind I'm still afraid that they may not find a heartbeat and I hate feeling this way I couldn't sleep last night because I was up worrying myself to death I think about the fact that I haven't gained any weight in fact I lost two more pounds so now my total is up to 15 pounds and that I'm never really hungry things like that make me worry I know I must seem nuts it's just that I want this baby so much I tried for over three years to get here I lost my first baby and I really don't think I could handle losing another and not at this point in pregnancy I'll be 16 weeks on Tuesday I'm just so worried about this baby please keep us in your prayers and I will write as soon as I come in from my appointment