today I got a call from my sister in law her and my brother have three children together my brother has two outside kids she is 23 and he is 25 my niece is almost seven and my two nephews are 5 and the baby is 6 months she lives with her parents and they really are having money problems will she is 4 months pregnant and want to have an abortion but it is $600.00 she just started a new job my brother does work so she calls me up today saying how she can't really afford to have the abortion and that she really doesn't want the baby and ahe wishes that she could find somebody to take the baby but her mother told her that if she is going to carry the baby nine months then she should keep it and she said that she really doesn't want the baby so now I feel like maybe she was hinting to me that she would like me to take the baby my sister would like me to take it my husband said that he thought it would lead to problems because it is family now I'm going to tell you how I really feel I have wanted a baby for so long I have had so many problems and I have had every test done to me and I finally got pregnant and lost the baby but the key thing is that I got pregnant and the chances that I'll get pregnant and carry the next baby to term are great so I feel like I love her I love my brother and my nieces and nephews with all my heart I don't want her to kill that baby but I do want her baby I want my own for a long time I was looking at adoption because I was not getting pregnant my first month on metformin and I got pregnant but if she wants me to take the baby how can I say no that my blood I just don't know what to do I would never treat the baby wrong if I did choose to adopt him or her but then what about my dreams of becoming a mother I really feel like she only asked me because she knows how bad I want a baby but I feel like now with the meds I'm on that it can happen for me now getting pregnant isn't the problem now I have to stay pregnant I just don't know what I should do and I told her it's crazy I just lost a baby and we were do a few weeks apart she doesn't even want that baby I just wish for a second that could be me still pregnant I wanted my little jelly bean and she wants to kill hers this whole thing is just crazy I do not know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!