today was not as bad as I thought it would be I didn't cry at all I just keep thinking about the fact that next year around this time with gods will I might be a mother I know that getting pregnant was half the battle and I'm blessed because there are so many people who have not been able to get that far and now my battle is to stay pregnant now that I been pregnant I really feel like one day I will be a mom and I have to have faith and keep praying and the lord will see me through this I can remember around this time last year crying my eyes out because I couldn't get pregnant and I prayed god please please let me get pregnant and he did so I really have faith the lord will help me get through this right now it just isn't my time the world isn't ready for a spoiled version of me lol:.) not yet!!!