it is so easy to fall in love with something so small but how do you say goodbye I really really loved that little jellybean I feel so heartbroken I really do my husband went back to work he works third shift and when he was leaving I hug him like 20 times I really did not want him to leave me I felt so sad and alone I just don't feel so lost now I had an appoinment with my doctor my blood pressure is 155/109 she is worried and I was told to do nothing until my next appoinment on friday she asked me how did I feel and I told her I really feel like losing this baby that took me so long to get pregnant with is killing me and that is how I feel like it is killing me so all I have been doing is trying to sit and relax can crying effect your blood pressure I think my husband is scared that something is going to happen to me with my blood pressure being so high so I'm trying my hardest to pull myself together I hate to see him worry so much