it ao easy to fall in love with something so small but so hard to say goodbye this is one of the hardest thing that I have every had to do I really really really loved that little tiny jellybean I just can't belive my baby is gone it seems like a really bad dream and speaking of dreams I keep on dreaming the whole thing over and over again I can't sleep or eat and I had an appointment yesturday my blood pressure in 155/109 I have never had a problem with high blood pressure before I feel like losing my baby is really killing my my husband went back to work tonight and this is my first time alone since I lost the baby I hug him 20 times before he left I really did not want him to leave me here I feel so alone but Iknow that he can't say home with me forever and I have to find a way to deal with this I really feel like a may need to talk to somebody