DAY 3

I work in film/tv production. One way we get more work is by networking and meeting people. My friend who is a director and writer invited me to this casual film gathering today. He said he understands if I can't go because of what Im going through.
Well when I woke up this morning I said to myself, my dad would go if he were me, lol. My dad was a huge people person. Great at networking. Very charming. Would tell great stories. Wheel and deal. 
So to their surprise. I showed up. They greeted me with a hug. So warm. I had a great time. I met people, handed out my business cards, enjoyed good food, and we watched some recently completed films. 
To my surprise I wasn't emotional and I wasn't thinking about my dad every second.
ITS ONLY BEEN 3 DAYS. WOW. I am impressed at my strength.
You all don't know me. I am the type who worries often... I have panic attacks over something stupid at a grocery store. I've always had a nervous energy.
And here I am, just 3 days after facing the greatest tragedy of my life, at a gathering, laughing, conversing, SMILING. I amazed myself. I underestimated my strength. I am proud of myself. 
And I could feel my dad saw it all and is proud too :)