2024 year of review

The year 2024 I think back on what I have achieved. I managed, Still working at both places Walmart and Arby's, Working on getting my own place to live and working on getting this settlement done as her family trying to stall, even though it has nothing to do with their property, I don't want it. Arby's continues to stressful that I am almost at my wits end. With Kelly constantly nagging about drive through times as she knows that is my weakest station and at Walmart I never in my life ran into so many arrogant people in my life with there shit don't stink or having men insult my intellegence, but it's funny that I can stand my ground with them that shuts them up and walk away. I am always thinking why am I doing this, I am tired of fighting to make sense out of all of this.

I was able to continue with my career being part of Baltimore's fashion week, Mini series of "poker Face" and participating in an actual movie "Happy Gilmore 2" Wow!! I just can't believe that I am in an actual movie.

Being picked up by Barbizon and trying out some of their auditions even though they weren't paid I was not chosen and the embarrassing part is that I was the only one. But it didn't happen once but twice. Makes me wonder if the journey is done as it quickly came to be. I am second guessing my actions trying to adjust my life, but I do know that I am still trying to make something out of myself to accomplish my goals. Near the end of the year has brought one of worst fears of my life as I lost my stepmother my only support person that has helped me from ending my own life, but I am surviving. As for Merle she still bring up the past, instead of moving forward, she makes me feel inferior and not worth the air that I breath. I still feel that I have accomplished some things but not enough. but it seems like I do a lot more one year and the second year not as much.