So it’s been a while since I have wrote anything in my journal so I figured I might need to update it just a bit.  Today is Christmas doesn’t feel like it, but I finally broke out of my shell and went to visit my family and relatives. It felt good being around people for the first time in a while. I didn’t have any nervous breakdowns or any irrational thinking.  Well as far as gifts goes I didn’t get anything all that special my grandmother made a pillow for me with a rainbow trout threaded in it and I though that was very creative and was a great gift with a lot of time and effort.  My sister got me a nice fleece pullover from the GAP.  My parents are just helping me pay for my bills since I am unemployed and I am not receiving any form of income at the moment.  Well I guess I can say Christmas was better than I expected. Hopefully my life will start picking up and I will get in shape and work on my mental health.