Today I got out from my depression hybernation I have been in, and went to see my friend. I broke the news to him about my illness and he swears he suffers from the same thing.  It just don't have to worry about messing up at work or anything because he works for his father.  So I think his father is used to his mood swings and stuff.  He recently broke it off with his girlfriend kinda feel bad for him, because I think he liked her pretty well.  She was almost 10 years younger than him so I knew it probley woldn't work out perfect.  They had different religon views and well anyways she played him lol.. poor guy..  So now I am back in my room stuck with nothing to do, but I guess it was progress getting out well thats what a good friend said.  She said baby steps nick baby steps and with my paranioa it's tough.  Didn't have any bad episodes while I was out, but did feel a little akward at moments.  Well next week I pray I can get the strength and energy to work out and start joggin or at least walking some everyday.  I need to look decent for my family if I can manage to be around them at Christmas. I felt bad I didn't go around them at Thanksgiving, but they are not fully aware of bipolar they probley think I am bi sexual or something.  LOL My family is really stuck in the past when it comes to soceity.  Well enough typing for now I think my vault coke is wearing off.xoxoNick