Well today is a rainy boring day.  I have nothing to do , nor do I want to do anything.  It has took me to this point to realize that I am 100% bipolar the more I read on the boards the more I understand that my symptoms are just like most of the bipolar II's out there.  I have been to the hospital 2 times for being manic or being on the crazy side of things, and while I read up there are people on the boards that have been 7-11 times.  I just hope I can learn to cope with this illness.  My only problems right now is getting motivation and energy to do things and finding things that I like to do.  I am in a depressive state, not to depressed I can still laugh at funny movies and crack silly jokes to my parents, but just enough to sit around and not want to go out with friends or anything.  I am trying my best today to lift some weights and pray and just do some healing efforts to my body.  I have wrote out some checks because I got paid from a place I was able to work 1 week and a half at. LOL.  It will make me feel better paying my own bills, although my parents are still paying the majority.  I wish someone would call me about my car I have for sale and purchase it so I could get out of all this debt. That way I could really work on my recovery and not wory about finincial situations. I mean I hate being a birden on my family and I know they hate it too.  If anyone reads this please pray with me to help my finincial situations.xoxo  Nick