9/2/07  Today was an okay day using this new medication it's really hard to adjust my body to get used to hobbies etc..  I want to read and watch TV but the more I try the more my paranioid skitzo part of my bi-polor kicks in and again I think the world is out to get me.  It's so funny why would I even think that I have so many people out to get me , I mean look at me I am just a loud mouthed country boy that regrets his past "probley why I am skitzo" *wink* I am also somewhat depressed because I cheated on my diet of clean health this morning I have not smoked a cigg in like umm a while and this morning I smoked one.  Just 1 I am happy tho that it just calmed my nerves some and that it allowed the day to go by with me being more relaxed than usall.  Usally there is so much I want to do and get done but I feel like a rat in a cage despite all my rage.  I ate healthy today so thats a positive. I ate a lot of fresh fruits and I feel pretty good.  So despite of smoking the cigg without nicotine "is what the label says" I think all and all my day has been pretty spledered. a lil country slang on the end give it up for the 2 good ol fellers that got themself saved and decided not to rob the bank. lol   == Movie  Soggy Bottom Boys    Funny Stuff...Well I have 5 things to be thankfull for today 1. Having a relationship with god2. Being close to my family 3. Um God Bless the USA?  "well being able to live in it although I have a strap on my ankle"4. Played starfox and got to the 2nd level "finally something else to do besides fish"5. Being alive and able to enjoy the beautiful day