8.25.07   What an interesting day, after waking up at 4:00 this morning to get ready to go on a trout fishing expedition I ended up stoping at an Arby's on the way home and listening to these old guys talk about the CIA.  It was funny because they referenced it to a movie but was talking about people getting stoned to death and people throwing rocks at them.  I don't know the complete meaning , but when I used to get stoned out of my mind I used to throw rocks at myself to make sure that I was still cognative. HAHA.  But anyways enought of the paraniod government alien thing I have going on. I wish someone would come buy my furniture and not just want pictures of it next time someone wants to see pictures I will just tell them I don't have any and they have to come look at it themself. Well I caught some fish "Yippee" I caught 5 big enough to eat , nothing major or huge but they will be really good for supper tonight.  I am also glas my medicine is working better.  I seem to keep a level head although there are people still trying to get under my skin with certain satanic numbers and saying GD and all that.  I don't make fun of their science I am actualy impressed with it.  I wish people would be greatfull enough for me to understand and have so much faith in something I can't see.  Call me stupid? Call me and idiot? Call me what you want.  Chope me up in a meat grinder.  Nothing can stop my faith.  What community? if I had someone sit down and talk to me about what is going on and not this 3rd party BS then maybe I might just understand.  But at this time  I will keep my dignity repsect and morals and religion and be who I am. Man I hate haveing mental problems....Sometimes I don't even thinK I have them.HAHAHHAa--Nick