8.20/07    I know this is hard for a lot of my friends to understand, but I like to put my life back together 1 peice at a time.  A lot of my friends recently have been begging me to move out with my parents get a job go back to school, but with the way my human emotions and their human emotions works , I need time to heal with them and also help them out.  My parents are struggling spiritualy and also on the clean side of life.  My short term goals for those who care are to get a job at Convergeys.  Start paying off some bills.  Eventualy get back into school either ITT tech or the place they dont want me to go which is Covenant College.  I like being around people and I like taking control and giving advise thats the only reason Covenant College seems to fit me for who I am.  I love technical side of life also, but i just dont see myself being happy deep down inside.  I also want to get in the finincial ability so my parents would not have to take out a huge loan for me and most of it would be my own.  I don't want to risk them loosing anything my parents are the best parents in the world , FOR SUPPORT AND LOVE , that is :) ....    But I am going to take this journey 1 step at a time and not jump in head first.     Health, Job, Education, Move, Wife,live whats left of my life then Expire peacefuly with my friends and family knowing I did not go out in this world not careing about myself and others. Nick