8.20.07 6:36  Looking to find the answer how do I get in your life , such a love so tender, Someone wants magic in my life.  As I wake so early the morning sun ready to be lifted from the tender splender of a new monday morning.  Maybe it will be a good monday.  To bad it's not still sunday.  For maybe today I will get on a normal habbit.  I might run as a rabbit.  Not as the same speed.  For I am afraid my heart might bleed in the wrong direction.  I woke up this morning with a normal erection thats a good thing for me my libido has been weak. When I woke I decided to go take a leak.  I bet there was someone sitting there laughing as they take a peak.  Clear as a crystal black as a stone sometimes I am happy I feel all alone.  Knowing what this world is coming to, I think it's best to keep to myself.  I would like to find the ones I have hurt and hold them tight.  For I can feel that happening in sight.  It would be o' so bright to let them see the real reasons I didn't make it right the first night.  I have told them many times before.  Because I never was a whore. I was blinded by a chemical.  I was blinded by a glass.  Not of wine.  Just of the devils swine. Knowing someone had my bed laid out for me in the past and I was able to understand the love of family so tight.  I am so happy I have a family that is so right.  The only family that is wrong love to sing that horrid song. As I watch the day go by I will ponder on my life going forward.  I will not forgive the ones that have tried to kill me, but accept that they will be punished when the time comes for them.  For the 120 years of life will get old.  Why would anyone want to live so long anyways?  They must be afraid of the end and that ways.  I remain happy.  I may appear to be depressed but it's only for those who will not see Jesus and God the same way I do.  For I shead a tear while you can drink your stupid beer.  I sit and try to make my body the best shape possible for an old hunk of coal.  But my soul will overpower my body and know it's low.  I am so glad I am still alive , I am so glad Jesus gave me a 2nd chance to see what people are doing to others.  I am so glad that I get to see those who think such an ape has evolved with such a powerful soul to be about to know. RIGHT FROM WRONG.---Nick