Today is 8/19/07 since the treats have calmed down maybe it's because I speak up and in my paranoid skitzo mind of mine that "our own government" has to label us as, it has calmed down so reality is more tollarable. Although I know what goes on behind scenes and it makes me so sick at my stomach.  I have been beinge eating probley gaining some weight and I know its not good for my high BP, but there is something controlling me tellling me to eat and it's not from my mind its from the signals from the airwaves from cell phone towers. I am seeing less and less of my past as each day progresses and knowing how bad it was I know I will stay on the "clean" side of life.  I am also going to keep my religion and just be the person I can be.  I stated in my myspace about moving to Alabama.  Thats not where I want to be at all.  I just put that there to make awareness to those where this "utopia" will take place at.  Where all these people who think they are perfect will eventualy figure out there can not be a heaven on earth it's impossible. There will have to be a balance even in your utopia.  when you start whiping the earth clean of the not so privilaged people who will you have left to make fun of and destroy? YOUR OWN KIND!!! So with your thinking there is only 1 person that can win.  Not a family.  A family has problems. And you can not deal with problems you just want to get ride of them.   My family has problems I deal with them on a daily basis.  If your the man you think you are your family is everyone that is on this earth. But you are not even 1/3 of the man you think you are.--Nick