8/12/07 Today is a great day of course because although I have no job :) My friends are turning their back on me.  My family thinks I am a "headcase"  I still know I have JESUS and GOD in my heart.  I went fishing yesterday and I am sure the "greys" was upset about met letting the fish go that swallowed the hook, if it was just to me I would have kept everything we caught but my dad would have been very upset.  I like the blue ridge damn area very nice cold water seem VERY clean I really look forward fishing their again sometime in the near future if my previous employer don't find a way to kill me off or blackmail me first by using alien technology.  Having complete access of your short-term memory is pretty pathetic I don't think the aliens are violent or one would have already beat the shit out of me.  Good luck I doubt 1 could even come close to hurting me. It would probley take 20 - 30 of them.  Not to brag but when my rage comes through after seeing what has been done to me and the outlook on this earth and how they are killing helpless people everyday.  I want to kill more than 20-30 of them.  The more they control my short-term memory the more I want to hurt them too.  the more aggressive when I see one out in public I just want to well better not threten anyone because my previous employer has done that already to me , and that would just be playing their pathetic games.  Blood pressure is okay, my happiniess level is ABOVE normal :) .   My pain level is medium , my heart is ticking on 10% probley when the alliant healthcare just will not tell me the truth.  I don't beilive a damn thing they SAY ANYMORE.  They claim they are helping me but the doctors don't want to listen all the way to do is just sling me on medication without asking me how I am feeling etc...   Well A patient has it's right as a human an animal as someone with a soul and someone that deserves the right to have free speech.