8/8/07 8:10 p.m. I just got back from the doctors office and he switched my medication to abilify.  It says its good for unclear thinking, and well I don't think I am bi-polor but the unclear thinking I have to agree with.  I have violent thoughts of people that has hurt me in the past and things I wanns do to them like kick them in the ass real hard. lol.  He said that if I have to many of those thoughts that he would send me back to the mental health hospital for a while. LOL.  Sometimes I think a lot of people need a good kick in the ol buttox.  He claims it will be assult , i just said it would probley be sexual harrasement unless they enjoy things going in the buttox then it might be more of a pleasurable pain. HAHAHA.  Well enough of the messed up way that i think.  Lets be more professional.  The Abilify claims I need to set realistic goals.  I want to return to a job soon, but I need to make sure my medicine is going okay with my system and my thought process is working okay.  If not I might be going around kicking random people in the but.  So I have set a goal that I need 1 week to deal with myself and to just relax maybe start cleaning the bedroom and starting to walk on the treadmill, and also get a referal to a heart doctor to check out my irregular heart beats.  They seem to be leaving off, but I don't think that means it's okay, I just think that it means my brain thinks it's okay :).. Well it was a hot one outside today.  It was 100 degrees.  Nice I love me some hot weather makes me wish I was realxing by a nice pool somewhere.  Not drinking beer anymore but a nice cup of ICE water :) ..  I have some goals to set for myself work on my weight, my diet is picking up pretty well..  I have been eating most natural things no soda or anything, water, and fruit juice.  My skin complection is nice. I just need to work on some weight issues.  Well enough of me bloggin nobody reads this anyways it's virtualy like i talk to myself :) or just people that exisit in my head.lol--Nick