2011....

So much has happened since 2011.... 

that's when i met ang and sam. i learned about angel cards. i learned more about meditation. i learned about getting away to the mtns and how important that was to my soul.

i learned how to start living w/o the most important man in my life from my birth. 

i joined afg... 

i started getting the meyers IVs that helped me so much. 

it was so pivitol

it got paco. 

i had had enough of mwm... and i was ready to check myself into the looney bin... 

i began claiming my happiness for myself...and started taking responsibility for my own happiness. 

but i still want change... of some kind... i don't know what. 

there are things i'm weary of.... 

Today i went to the AFG meeting. it was really good. we talked about people pleasing and how detrimental it is to other ppl and to ourselves. i remembered boundaries. we talked about holidays and how most of us hate holidays bc w/ alcoholics in our lives it brings so much stress... we talked about how normal rockwell is a lie. ... 

I got up at 5 and did not sleep all that great last night... i was awake a lot... no real reason... but then after class i got dressed and went to have blood work done and then to the meeting. then i cleaned house just a little... but i took my uke out in the backyard and played LOUD ... i didn't care who heard me.... it was really good to release that stress... i learned a new song and it was a lot of fun. then i watched a vid on how to pick and to pick to a metronome... it was a very very good vid and helped me a lot. I have wanted to learn but feel kind of overwhelmed with it. this girl really did break it down to just 3 strings and how to set a pace with an app w/ a metronome on it. it was wonderful. it was like a break thru. i need to practice more. 

i drug all my sewing stuff out the other day. ineed to start on mug rug... i started on one and the "inspiration" was just not there.... 

but i can take it to my aun'ts and i will get inspired. she is working on a quilt. i need to make patterns. 

so i have some projects at hand for the weekend. the sun came out. my moon always lifts when the sun comes out.

i dread my blood work coming back... but oh well... it will be what it will be...