Sad
Just a little sad today. I don't really know why and I don't want to think too much about why or I may spiral deeper.
It was weird. I was just making homemade cream of broccoli soup and listening to my oldest go on and on critiquing some video game when it hit me out of nowhere:
My husband cheated on me. He told another woman she was beautiful. He held her and made love to her and spent countless hours texting and calling her. He invested in her instead of investing in me or the kids.
I know. Stupid. And duh. This is no revelation. It just hit me hard and fast and out of the blue. Rather than let it nibble away at me I just told myself, "Yes. He did. But he's not anymore. He sent you a loving text not more than two hours ago and he's going to call tonight and he's going to come home to you in the morning after work."
It helped from sinking deeper but I guess I just need to be a little sad for a little longer.
It was weird. I was just making homemade cream of broccoli soup and listening to my oldest go on and on critiquing some video game when it hit me out of nowhere:
My husband cheated on me. He told another woman she was beautiful. He held her and made love to her and spent countless hours texting and calling her. He invested in her instead of investing in me or the kids.
I know. Stupid. And duh. This is no revelation. It just hit me hard and fast and out of the blue. Rather than let it nibble away at me I just told myself, "Yes. He did. But he's not anymore. He sent you a loving text not more than two hours ago and he's going to call tonight and he's going to come home to you in the morning after work."
It helped from sinking deeper but I guess I just need to be a little sad for a little longer.
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Hi Allora,
I also have these moments when I feel in that very simple and natural way what my husband did without regard for me. It hurts but I think it also makes you feel the reality of your situation which can only lead to moving forward. Hugs for you.