2010 is going to be my year

 Well 2009 is almost had its run and soon another year will dawn. What have I done in 2009 to make me a better person?   Well to be honest jack-shit-nothing.   That is not totally honest, I have done some things. I watched a dear friend die. I heard him say that things were getting better and then he died.   I did rediscover the beauty and magic of other people. People that I will never have the joy and pleasure of sharing a meal or a good bottle of wine with; then again  who knows what the future holds.   I actually stopped and smelt the flowers, I actually heard the message that is so softly spoken in the wind. I did upon numerous occasions refuse to take off my rose coloured glasses and look at the world through the eyes of a realist. No harsh, colourless reality for this boy. No, like Tinkerbell, I spread my fairy wings and flew to Never-Never Land and there I was at my happiest. There I discovered the real things that made me a  better person.   When I wrote that I did jack-shit-nothing; what I mean is that I did nothing more than discover the Chrisness that makes me Chris, a true and unique person.  Sure there was really no need to fly to Never Never Land and yet, I had to do just that. For it was there that I once again discovered that things many throw away. That one thing that we all need even more than the ability to love or be loved. That one thing is the need to be different and to be happy with that difference. In fact to celebrate that difference with all those that still treasure and hold dearthe fact that they are different.   So 2010 is in fact going to be just another road or path I will have to travel down; this time it will be different. It will be different because I am happy with myself and I can shout out in all honesty, I am different so WTF.   Ora pro nobis ....ad multos annos to one and all.