2010 has 2 be better

I have prayed and talked to DH every night about this year and how it has 2 be a better year, not 4 me but 4 Aubrey.  I myself have so much personel issues to work through and I just continue to pray 2 God that he will give me the strength 2 get through them.  As far as Aubrey she had such a GREAT Christmas, HO HO was REALLY good to her and she still finds new things to play with everyday.  As 4 me, I had a hard time because I had 2 keep my mind off of the lose as it would over take me.  I put in today for a new postion at the same company, but it would be way differnt work.  I am finding it hard to deal with other peoples problems when I have so many, so this job would only be taking appointments and such.  I just hope that the money is better because I really need it as I have so many bills going into collections.  I feel as though I can not keep up, and they do not like to work with you even after explaining what I am going through.  I think they think I am lying about DHs death.  Which is SICKI have decided to look into getting a lawyer and see if there is a case in DHs death as I feel there is.  I hate to do this as it will be talking about it all over again, but I can not stop thinking about this.Well here is hoping that 2010 is better for all of us.